Dear God,
Please don’t let this week or the week after next and the one after that, etc etc. be anything like last week.
Thanks
Hoox
Last week was an absolute cluster. Just when I thought it couldn’t get any worse, it did. Much worse. Nothing actually happened directly to me but instead to many people close to me. The hits just kept on coming. I spent much of the weekend numb with confusion just going, “what the hell is going on here?” Some of the things I wrote about. Some I can’t for political reasons. There was also stuff thrown in there that I’m not sure is even worth writing about. Crap that shouldn’t be allowed to effect everything else but it does. Repeatedly. It’s like a coin slot on the game of life: “Insert crap here”.
Perhaps some day soon I will write about all of it, if it still makes sense to later. For now I will just push it to the back, out of sight, out of mind. Let the subconscience deal with it. The conscience can take it back some other time. Although, some things are better left unsaid.
The past week has shed a whole new light or perhaps a whole new perspective on life and death and relationships and support structures (or lack thereof) and the direct or indirect connection between all of them. Nothing makes complete sense.
Some people just don’t get it. They just don’t understand. I think I’m one of them.
Deep breath. Onwards and upwards…