It wasn’t me I swear! :-S
Ok in all seriousness, I never went to go and buy cigarettes yesterday. I never had a smoke. But my day didn’t get any better. What did I expect? I reckon a year or so ago that certainly would have been the time I would have walked out of the office and just sat outside and smoked a few before going back in feeling “better”. If I had done so I would have regretted it forever!
I sometimes still have dreams that I started smoking again and I wake up SO disappointed in myself and then feel very relieved when I work out it was only a dream. I don’t actually think of smoking much at all anymore. There are however times that will crop up when there’s a flicker of a thought and a great thing that I can use to get over that fleeting urge is, “If I could survive a year of Iraq stress and fear and boredom and anger without smoking, then I can handle this stupid day”.
Thank you very much to everyone who emailed me or got me on the phone and MSN, either to tell me off or be concerned about my stupid decision.
The filthy habit is still at bay!
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